I stayed up too late last night; 3:15 am. I know better than to allow myself to get on the computer in the evening! It was facebook, then job hunting, then health information. My son tried to drag me away from it. He’s 4 so I took little breaks and kept coming back. Eventually the little guy fell asleep and stopped coming downstairs after me. I decided when I got into bed to go ahead and set the alarm clock. Sundays are usually the only days I do that. I almost needn’t have done it because my son woke me at 8 to turn on the compter for him and bring up the Lego website.
I tried to sleep until 9 and then the alarm went off. I lay there another 10 minutes and then decided I should do what I had made up my mind to do. Today I wanted to visit the Episcopal Church, my home away from home, my retreat center. A member of my knitting group goes there. I wondered if I should call her or just wait and see if she showed up. The weather’s been foul and she hasn’t been going every week. It is about a 20 mile drive.
I got there in good time, about 10 minutes before the service. I noticed that the other arrivals were going in the NW door, so I went that way too. The sanctuary of this church is unusual in that, though rectangular, the altar is in the absolute middle of the room with the choir loft and organ at the east end behind half of the pews. The clergy and acolytes sit on the south of the altar. There is a raised pulpit north of the altar, and both the sermon and the gospel reading are presented here.
I saw the guest book almost as soon as I got in. Since I’m so well trained, I went right up to it and put my name and address down. I left off the title.
No one greeted me, which is pretty typical of many churches, I think. They weren’t unfriendly. They didn’t scowl at me, they just didn’t go out of their way to welcome me. And since I am one of those who can easily make myself look like I know what I’m doing, I proceeded to act that way. I walked right across the nave and into the hall, hoping to find a bathroom. I had been drinking tea on the way over and also realized I had forgotten to pack some kleenex.
The worship leaders were robing in a side room and there were a couple milling around in the hall. I noticed there were two unisex bathrooms right there, and they were both occupied. I waited. Small chit chat about the state of the bathrooms, and then a priest emerged. I figured it was probably the rector, but I didn’t say anything, just kind of smiled and went in the bathroom. I took care of business and grabbed about 5 tissues so I’d be prepared for the inevitable flood.
It was the patronal feast day. A lay person, I think the choimaster/organist, did a guitar prelude and sang. It sounded like it might be something from “Gather”, a Roman Catholic contemporary hymnal. It was nice. The guitar and his voice were quite pleasant and even a bit soothing. I was quite solitary in my pew, though there were others seated in my section. I had seen a sign noting the church maximum occupancy was 575, but I would guess there may have been about 150 in attendance. The choir was very small and average, while the music was very good; even had brass.
It was nice to have most of the liturgy printed out (just like my former EC parish, they must be using “The Rite Stuff”.). And nice also to know my way around the Book of Common Prayer and the Hymnal 1982. I tried to allow myself to get taken in to the ritual, but couldn’t help but make mental notes about how they did things differently from my old parish. I caught myself wondering about the differences.
What I really liked was the kneelers. For some reason I wanted to spend the entire service on a kneeler. I think it must be just a good way for my body to describe how it feels. Not contrite exactly, but certainly humble, meek, needy, reverent. But I knew that my knees would be very uncomfortable and people would notice. I didn’t want any extra attention.